Haiz...

People are such a weird human begin, life as well.
Nothing is wonderful, there are always two sides of coin, nothing is exactly right or wrong
Why God wanna test us? wanna make us so confusing in our future?
 Everything is unknow we need to discover by ourself to find the answer in our heart, but there is a day we will feel exhausted, feel very insecure, feel loneliness, useless, and more.
I really hope that i were a wonderful person, no mistake, no weakness, be the storngest person in my little small world.
Now, I'm lost I don't know where I'm now.
Maybe, i will answer myself as I'm still studying/ Im still learning/ i need educate
I don't know what i wanna be in future, feel pissed off with myself
I'm  not like other they full of ambitious, passion to reach their goals
I'm  not like other they smart at study, curriculums....
Feel so hopeless now.
Why I'm not as other people, I have no talent....just an ordinary girl
WHY...
Damn it! Fk it off!
I'm not good at writing, even speaking as well
How?

I had failed 2 subject, which are ENG and CTS
I really thought of jumped off from building, everything will go disappear.
Im piece of SHIT! i more worsen then my brother, sister
Although my dad know that I'm not clever as other, I really appreciate it you still willing give me education , give whatever what i want, has a wonderful and awesome sweet family..
Maybe you didn't say negative thing to me, but i still can feel it , your body language, ur voice tune, gesture, the words you say , and more ..


I know that kind of feeling, that's why I'm always trying to keep myself happy and spread the hapiness to all around the people who with me.
That feeling is bitter