FUCK!

Who does want to fail, sure nobody want to fail
but what can I do? I failed 2 subjects, you think this what I want to get?
After I have seen my result, u know what I have thought?
How could it be ?! I thought I will pass all, but unfortunately i failed!
U think this is what I have expected?
U think i can bear with this kind of pressure?
That's , at a particular time I really want to give up, even I almost get to there, I feel this is a shame to me, I have to waste my parent's money again to retake these subjects, and my precious time to study it again.
I'm really frustrated , why i can't be like other people, they are intelligent, and talented.
I really feel want to transfer to another college, if i fail again, i really can't stand over it.
I'm become very sensitive, when they said I have failed 2 subjects , it keep reminding me that to extend my semester until Sep, then i can graduate. I really scare I can' graduate from foundation programme.
That's why i really wanna be like other people, so that i can finish my education smoothly, i really don't want to waste my parent's money, I wanna quickly finish my everything, therefore i can work earlier, no need much depend on parents. I feel like Im a burden to them, I feel i'm useless,, I'm a failure,  I can't do anything to them so far..

I really tried my hard.....so what?
Ya... when i told my parents and some of my friends
They said" try harder"
Try harder, try harder, try harder....
u teach me how i gonna try more harder?

I even warned my brother, don't study at there, is waste of money and time
Until now, i'm still suffer because of this!
Yes, I'm try to be more positive, but sorry for that, my family has the most power to influence my mind.....even i try to be myself.
i can't neglect how people think of me.....

OMG

我还真的不知道，我可以暗恋一个人可以这么久~
昨天， 有CAP mid-term,
我在图书馆读书，过后转头看到看到朋友不熟的啦~YUV
在那边跟他的朋友，过后他走了
不久，我听到声音。。哦~是他哦
看到他就，心跳很快=。=
就在那边想，是不是YUV跟他说所以他才来。。。
也可以是因为，他朋友那边没有位，他才过来
跟他没说过话，但有时候，当我们看到对方的时候，眼神都会互看一下。。
希望，是自己看错
没什么说过话，但就是喜欢他。。有没有搞错哦~？
就写个爽。。因为，我不是他
第一次，喜欢一个人，喜欢到那边他的朋友在那边传。。=。=
我知道，是不可能的啦
就想下就好了。哈哈

开心

看到自己的进步，真的很开心
当然，没有别人的帮助， 你也不会察觉到的。

'LIKE'

Is time to refresh my blog.
I had joined the Bursa Young Investor Challenge last Friday of 26/2
through this game, I had knew that I am a conservatism, I didn't "all in" like other groups they even borrow loan from the bank.
At the end, I satisfied with the result, even thought not the top
haha.
my group get no 11 over 22 XD