FUCK!

Who does want to fail, sure nobody want to fail
but what can I do? I failed 2 subjects, you think this what I want to get?
After I have seen my result, u know what I have thought?
How could it be ?! I thought I will pass all, but unfortunately i failed!
U think this is what I have expected?
U think i can bear with this kind of pressure?
That's , at a particular time I really want to give up, even I almost get to there, I feel this is a shame to me, I have to waste my parent's money again to retake these subjects, and my precious time to study it again.
I'm really frustrated , why i can't be like other people, they are intelligent, and talented.
I really feel want to transfer to another college, if i fail again, i really can't stand over it.
I'm become very sensitive, when they said I have failed 2 subjects , it keep reminding me that to extend my semester until Sep, then i can graduate. I really scare I can' graduate from foundation programme.
That's why i really wanna be like other people, so that i can finish my education smoothly, i really don't want to waste my parent's money, I wanna quickly finish my everything, therefore i can work earlier, no need much depend on parents. I feel like Im a burden to them, I feel i'm useless,, I'm a failure,  I can't do anything to them so far..

I really tried my hard.....so what?
Ya... when i told my parents and some of my friends
They said" try harder"
Try harder, try harder, try harder....
u teach me how i gonna try more harder?

I even warned my brother, don't study at there, is waste of money and time
Until now, i'm still suffer because of this!
Yes, I'm try to be more positive, but sorry for that, my family has the most power to influence my mind.....even i try to be myself.
i can't neglect how people think of me.....