Haha....

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I had been seeing counselor from Semester 2 to Semester 4, it a long journey to me and her.
Officially, my counseling session has ended, but problems seem to be here till now. Notice the problems, but the method to solve are still searching. Is difficult to find the solution even u know the problems. For me, EQ is one of the resistant to move further? Maybe yes, maybe no? I feel more comfortable in certain ways because I have used to be. Conversely, the feeling make me feel sick. Is the same problems....

Yes, after the counseling I feel much more better to myself. I feel more happier than before, I have found myself, more confident.
But when come to the problem which is the same problems I have been facing it before, I feel the badass in myself keep thinking of I am not good enough in everything academic, relationships and etc. It is truth for me because I really not good enough compare to my brother & sister. I am the extraordinary normal in my house. I not clever, not humor whatsoever I seem useless in this house. And to my dad, I don't feel any feeling from you, I not really like you honestly. Every times, when discuss something with you I always loss my patient to you. Like what my counselor said I can't avoiding him forever, ha... I don't know what else I can do. For exp, I will wake up later even I have awoke early but I till keep myself in the sheet just because don't want to see you. Haha...
Ha...sound a bit serious lol...
That's way I want to grow more older ? XD
So, I won't depend on you so much.
Haiz.. should I solve the problem?


我能说我不是你的骄傲。